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Tuesday, August 16, 2005
dont care any longer
I had loved him. He had let me feel the love that was real, the kind of happiness he had given me. I was only able to see the truth in his eyes and the way his actions showed. Everything seemed so vague. I failed to hear the words I still needed to hear, but still I kept going. For those times we were spending time together, we were spending every second as a precious one. It was like I was afraid for time, wherein like him is nowhere to be found. I had love him for who he is, the real him, despite of his imperfections. But those feelings he did not know, it was only kept within me. I was not able to tell him how I really feel; even though it hurts, still I hide it. I was scared to lose the friendship we had. But how come now his gone, do not know how his life going. We just parted ways but I was not thinking it will all end up by that. By this time, I do not feel that he still care. I was hurt so much by the way he fails to remember those happy moments I have treasured. However, I need to move on. He is now part of my past, the past that contributes a change in my life. Maybe we are not meant for each other, that another someone deserves better. I need to face life the way I know I should be. There will be no one like him but someone might be special and better than him, who can love me back the way I will love him. It hurts but as what my friends are telling me, time will heal and someone will heal.

loving me [3:24 PM]
*____[I]*[miss]*[youuu]____*



Friday, August 12, 2005
i'm back!
Hei! Im back! I have been very busy lately… hewhew. Not much with studies other than definitely enjoying myself! I am so glad being recovered from my melancholy which had been affecting me much. Only to realize that it is not worth howling. I am so moving on…
At the moment, it will be days with lotz of excitement! There are loads of great things to realize for ourselves with the ever exciting, thrilling, challenging existence. Dont have much to mention right now.. Babboosh!(^ ^)

loving me [10:08 AM]
*____[I]*[miss]*[youuu]____*








]]_about*me_[[
Nick-
*paz/pae/pash/pacitz/pacing*
AgE-
*18` 2005*
sCho0l-
*MAPUA School of IT*
e mail/ym-
*snow_princess1886@yahoo.com*
friendster-
*hermione_649@yahoo.com*
*_my pic_*


__XLikesX__-
*dancin, acting, strolling, mall hoppin, interesting books, music, adventures.. sincere & loving people.*
__xDislikesx__-
*people who hate me...*



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05/01/2005 - 06/01/2005
06/01/2005 - 07/01/2005
07/01/2005 - 08/01/2005
08/01/2005 - 09/01/2005
10/01/2005 - 11/01/2005
11/01/2005 - 12/01/2005
01/01/2006 - 02/01/2006
02/01/2006 - 03/01/2006
03/01/2006 - 04/01/2006




*__beloved]x[PAZZ__*
----i love reading your messages here---
*_Dear beloved diary, ...... *_i've been missing a guy sho much day after day. *_i almost dream of him everyday. *_when`eva i saw him, my heart gonna drop out. *_do this..... counted as.... love?...... please give me the answer...siggh. *_i guess.... im in love with him. *_im waiting for his call day after day... ... ... *_im gonna freeze from the coldness he gave me. *_is he stl gonna be there for me?...does he stl care for me? sighh.. .. .. ... ... ... .. from, (PAZ)...