if you only knew....
I have the pleasure of being with you. Whilst I am going through hard times, you are there to cheer me up. As I got to know the "real you," I realized what a great person you are. I want you to know how gorgeous you are. And that you must recognize. I know now that I love you. I love you,dont know why.. yet you have no idea. From the very start I never expected to fall for you since Im afraid to love again. If you only knew how I feel about you, I wonder, would you be willing to make my life complete? But whatever it is... it will be alright for me.. it isnt your fault..
loving me [9:41 AM]
*____[I]*[miss]*[youuu]____*
Friday, October 28, 2005
starbucks..
I have hilarious times with my jovial friends Lorenz, Pao and JM lately. They are giving me reasons to stay cheerful in spite of being lost from my melancholy...senti?=( The other day we went to "starbucks"...[treat ni Lorenz... Thank you!!]^_^. It was a drizzly breezy day of sharing our top secrets?? Hihihi.. We had great talks that I late realized we were spending over four hours taking the weight off our feet. You just cant imagine what stuffs we were chatting about. Hehe..shssshhh.. am so grateful having them.*-*..fishes!!] Still have lots of things to say but I need to go nah... bitin??sowee..
loving me [2:33 AM]
*____[I]*[miss]*[youuu]____*
Thursday, October 20, 2005
it's just these hazy LAZY days..
Oh my...Im doing really badly in my academics. We are still in the 2nd week of the term and yet Im doing faulty in my English and CS class! Ive been so lazy in studying my new lessons and making projects. Yesterday, I didnt submit my seatwork in one of our subjects as I hate my work. Plus our teacher in RiZaL and SoCioLogy never get tired of making loads of homework!! AAAAAAHHHHH... It is so annoying...wanna relax...pleease.. Currently I even have 6 assignments to make!! huhuhuhuhu..
loving me [7:09 AM]
*____[I]*[miss]*[youuu]____*
Friday, October 14, 2005
sometimes it hurts, but it's a good hurt...
I have never felt any physical pain stronger than the emotional pain that I live with. Pain -- in my eyes, I am not supposed to feel it. When I was little and I would get hit or bashed, or bruised, pain there is unclear, but after that I stopped feeling it. I cut my leg and just look at it, but feel no pain. Sometimes it's scary. There was a time I almost feel numb. Not at first. When I begin to feel the pain, it's almost as if I finally realize that I am alive and have any feelings at all. That's when I stop . . . when I begin to feel ANYTHING. (^_'^)
loving me [5:54 PM]
*____[I]*[miss]*[youuu]____*
Thursday, October 13, 2005
when heartaches hit, they hit hard...
Suddenly, I have realize how he means to me. It is like a part of me is still missing though I think I have already done my best to forget. I can not help myself from reminiscing whenever I pass by those remarkable places we used to be together. I may sound melodramatic that even those old cliches ring out to be true. And I find myself one sad evening actually listening to corny love songs, reading between those damn stupid lines..hew! hew! God help me in getting my strength back out of this heartache. Is jumping into another relationship to get over the loss helpful?! Is it better to mend my broken heart first before moving on to another relationship?!
loving me [7:26 PM]
*____[I]*[miss]*[youuu]____*
Wednesday, October 12, 2005
since you're not here
"The richest love is that which lasts through time apart to someday be together."
Latest barkada pic..[dark nga lang..] I'm enjoying spending mah spare time with these guys.. there is never been a dull moment when we're together. Though we are not classmates in most of our subjects this 2nd term, we still manage to see each other and even have gig.. Most of the times you'll find us wearing smiles however we're also open to secrets or even problems.. Hmmm..I guess someone here is lacking.. Ahh.. okei.. Philly was taking the pic..
